Yes, Indeed I Am This Dense(Gabrielle)
June 29, 2005 by Gabrielle
I have been noticing a strange phenomenon cropping up in my manner of speaking. Lately I have found myself saying things like- “The other day we did such and such and I was worn out by the time it was done, but for reasons X, Y and Z it was worth it.” Or something like “We went here and we did that and I have yet to recover, but it was worth it.” I noticed this trend and I wondered at it. Why am I going out of my way to make sure I know and the person I am talking to knows that what I am doing is worth it? Why is that so important? As I have pondered this happening I think I have reached a conclusion. This life is hard and I am finally noticing.
That’s right, folks, I am just now noticing how difficult is this life I have chosen. It has finally penetrated deep into the back of my head that life is hard and my life especially. Yes, I know, I am dense. I have been doing this for a whole year; you would think I would have figured out that it is hard by now. But no, I am just now beginning to understand exactly what I have gotten myself into. It makes me think of a quote I found in a book –
“It can be back-breaking, heart wrenching, and anxiety producing. And that’s just the morning.”
AMEN!
The hard part comes when it’s hard to see that it really is worth it. Then it is just a matter of trusting God that His plan in creating toddlers really does make sense.