Thoughts about Thoughts About (Gabrielle)
August 14, 2007 by Gabrielle
I just noticed, and not for the first time, that we have a category called Thoughts About Being Single. If you click on this link you will find eight posts. Together, Raquel and I have written over seven hundred posts. There are a hundred and seventeen posts on Friends and Family, seventy-six posts on Poems and Stories, thirty-eight Real Life Quotes and even fourteen posts on Words. This blog is defined by us talking about this road less travelled we’ve chosen by being stay-at-home single young women and yet we don’t talk much about being single. And we talk even less about being Womanly.
I think I have an answer to this odd discovery. I can’t speak for Raquel (actually, I can, but I am choosing not to), but the reason I don’t write much about being single or about being womanly at all is because I have just about no idea how to do these things. I feel like I muddle through trying to be single to the glory of God and at the end of the day still have no idea what I did or if it was effective. So why would I want to write about it? I can write about words, family, poems and stories. I understand those things and can enjoy them. This single thing is just confusing to me.
Please don’t misunderstand me; I am not upset. I only had this thought or bothered to write it out because I was casting about for something to write to reassure both of you who read this blog that I at least still care. But it was odd when I noticed the number of posts in the Thoughts About Being Single category because it didn’t surprise me at all. I have no idea how to do this sinlge thing; why would I write about it? There are a multitude of books out there on how to be single well. Some of them are even good. I’ve only read one that was at all helpful. Maybe everybody else is just as confused I am. I think I’ll just assume that; it’s makes me feel better.
I understand completely and I don’t find this to be a complaint, but an observation. There is another possible reason why you don’t post about Singleness or Being a Woman. Essentially ALL your posts are about singleness and being a woman because you ARE a single woman. It’s impossible to separate yourself from those things (as much as, I’m sure, you’d like to separate yourself from singleness
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Then there’s also the part where one usually only understands what a part of life is all about right after that part is over.
I go through just about every day pretty sure I’ll never get the hang of being a husband, a father, or what I do for my job.
Many days I’d really like to quit (not because I don’t like these three things, mind you, but because I suck at them) and I’m glad (at least in two of the cases) I don’t have an option. I’d miss my wife and kids.
There’s stuff I used to do that I think I was good at.
But I didn’t think that when I was doing it.
Good point, James. There was a time when I might have thought of that. I used to be good at that